Nothing celebratory

My last day teaching. Yay! Heaved a sigh of relief. I chose to leave cos I doubt I can continue working there and still be happy. Entering NTU is an excuse. Yeah, it's a good paying job whereby I can take a break equivalent to 4 'Take 5' breaks with Sara Lee occasionally like today. But the time has come. Well after 2 years of teaching there, it is time to move on. Sunshine, be mentally prepared. It is hell not easy to teach a bunch of monkeys how to behave.

On my doctor, Ah Chiam (fondly nicknamed by Mummy). He's not officially my family doctor but I've been patronising him since I shifted to Braddell 11 years ago due to 1) proximity to my place, 2) cheap fees and 3) generous with the medical leave. When I was much younger studying in Secondary School and Junior College, he would be my favourite doctor to go to cos I can easily request for 2 days MC from him, sometimes even 3, unlike the polyclinic whereby they are much more stringent when it comes to issuing MCs. Moral of the story? Visit nice old kind looking doctors whose clinics resemble a 60s 70s setting.

Anyway, have got leave for Sunday as well but I will try to go in to work and hope the nausea and migraine stays away. It's no fun puking your lunch out and having to sleep on a particular sofa (the bed somehow doesn't let me get to sleep easily) just to ease that throbbing ache in the back of your right brain. Reminds me when I was in Secondary Four, and h0w I always suffer from this ailment. No medicine can relieve it other than to to sleep away on that particular sofa seat, and have a pail lined in await of my vomit. Something that I feel like doing so n0w.

I need more than just a break, I need a holiday. Preferably between 18th-22nd July before school starts on the 25th. Am making plans to go up North to Malaysia again (the last time I went away to Desaru alone by myself to recharge my batteries without informing my parents). I don't think I told anyone other than Marycherry and Bitercoffee prior to the trip. I was wondering if this time I should make it another solo trip all the way up Ipoh or somewhere unknown or if I should go along with Sara Lee to KL. It's good to have company. Sara Lee is thinking of going to visit his old friends in Australia before he starts teaching with MOE and as much as it is very appealing, think it would be too rushed for me and a mega hole burnt in my pocket.

More on ...

Yeah, and the conversation with Sara Lee got me so frustrated!!! He just doesn't believe that I am so guai!!! Don't watch porn, don't masturbate, never had sex before, never seen a guy's dick before (other than the stupid porn pop ups which I closed the windows immediately) and basically just sexually uneducated (the practical part)! Wah lau, I came out of my first brazilian waxing crying after being prodded and abused by the therapist!!! That is how bad! I may not have that all innocent look about me but I sure am! And doesn't help when Hairy Pits my Smart Science boss tells me off after work that my dressing is a point of concern! WTF?!?! I haven't even been wearing anything revealing to work! Hot pants? I don't wear that! It's just normal levis jeans, or three quarters, or skirts (not the ultra short kind), normal sneakers or slippers, normal tops (really no flesh bared at all other than the arms) and other teachers comment that I dress too sexy to be considered a teacher!?!?! And me coming in to work with a hickey? I did wear a collared long sleeve shirt which I pulled up to cover up and loads of foundation to cover up for it. I did not deliberately show it off to the kids! Madness! It's all how you define sexiness to be!

Come on, do I look that dense a nut to wear clothes that may incur the parents' wrath? It's all in the point of view. Maybe cos I've curls and bangs. Had I have straight rebonded hair, would others say that of me? I know the importance of preserving my reputation but in this case, there is nothing I can say. Like me appearing on the newspapers on the Hot Bods columns? I kept it low profile. Didn't really say much to anyone cos there really is nothing to boast about. I can't stop people from reading and finding out about it. But hey, there is no need to debase me just for a photo that saw me being shot in a bikini! See, what did I say about being in the education industry? ANAL! PWEH!

I'm tired of defending myself against the rest. Weary trying to putting up a strong front and acting nonchalant. Speak to the hand. My ears aren't listening.

P/s: I love my wireless keyboard and mouse. Allows me to type even from the sofa I am resting on now. Though I am straining my eyes to read the words I've typed.