Jaded

It's been a long time since I last used this term on myself.

Feeling both lost and the pang of loss.

I am known as sluttobe on Jenkin's blog. Am seen by Kell and Mr Bond as a hungry for attention _______ (slut/whore/whatever you name it). And even my very own Gothic Jap Porn Star thinks I do not have/practise restraint over the boys she love!?!?

I am cracking up. To look slutty is one thing, but to say that I am one or behave like one really is the limits.

Great, slutty without even having to try so hard.

Does being friendly, engaging in small talk with friends (new and old alike) constitutes as flirting? I don't paw or maul them nor touch them anywhere at all. I can if I want to but I do NOT and did not. I did not lay my hands on your men. I just don't get it. I don't need to go so low to seek attention. I might as well just strip and have men stare at me. Sorry but I don't.

I thought I understand you, but guess I was wrong. You don't tell me things, mostly partial truths or not at all. Yes, enlighten me, tell me where I have gone wrong. Cos I really just don't get it.

I am not bitching here. I need and want to resolve this. But from the looks of it, we are damn far away from that.