Yogurt and Yukult...

Goes hand in hand. They make a wonderful supper just before I sleep.

My nose is dripping again and hurting from blowing it overly hard. Was feeling ill earlier in the day, and having cold shivers despite wearing a thick denim jacket in the hot blazing sun.

Work is good cos it keeps me busy and keeps me from thinking about you.

And damn do I not like it when I heard about how you behave in this manner, teasing girls who like you, blowing hot and cold.

I was so upset hearing it that I ate up the yummy thing I had bought for him 5 days ago.

I wished I didn't have to hear all that. It is not in me to play this kinda teasing games cos

1) I'm not a player
2) I get victimised more often than not since guarding my heart is not my forte
3) I am a sucker for brooding pai kias like you
4) When I fall, I fall really hard. Wince.

Ouch. My msn conversation with Zenth goes...

Zenth says:
the teasing game?
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
damn it hate my ****.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
think he's playing games with my heart
Zenth says:
really?
Zenth says:
why not sort it all out with him?
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i dont know. he's cleverly averting the questions
Zenth says:
hmm..
Zenth says:
then give him an ultimatum..
Zenth says:
hahaha.
Zenth says:
no no no no no... don't phunk with my heart..~
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
hahahahha
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
he has nothing to lose.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
really
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
he has loads of girls who like him
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i am but one of them
Zenth says:
then it all depends on your choice of actions then.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
enlighten me master
Zenth says:
well...
Zenth says:
how much do you really like him?
Zenth says:
i mean.. is it really worth it? that's what you've gotta ask yourself.
Zenth says:
is it going to be worth all the emotions and effort? and what are the chances they all won't be put to waste?
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i dont know.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i like him alot enough to tell him i even got ******
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i have already sunk alot of emos into it...
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i dont know..
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
when i fall.. i fall terribly hard..
Zenth says:
but are ur feelings returned?
Zenth says:
if not.. then don't waste any more time and effort into it because ultimately, it's only you that's going to get all the pain right?
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i dont know if my feelings are returned..
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
it seems they are at times..
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
and not at times..
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
i dont know how he feels towards me.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
really
Zenth says:
then i think..
Zenth says:
"He's just not into you"
Zenth says:
because if he really liked you, he would have already done something.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
shit
Zenth says:
it's the truth..
Zenth says:
he might say he's still getting over his ex and all.. but i think that's all just excuses.
Zenth says:
i think you should get that book.
Zenth says:
haha.
Zenth says:
http://www.usatoday.com/life/books/excerpts/2004-09-08-hes-just_x.htm
Zenth says:
http://www.oprah.com/tows/pastshows/200409/tows_past_20040922.jhtml
Zenth says:
http://dating.about.com/od/justforthegals/qt/HesNotIntoYou.htm
Zenth says:
that last link seems good.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
damn
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
sigh. oh well.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
love sucks big time.
Zenth says:
sorry to tell you all this.
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
its ok. better now than never or later.
Zenth says:
i mean.. i think you're moving onto to another stage in your life and something like this is what's holding you back..
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
oh my bingo!
miryclay - i do not like the teasing game says:
incredibly spot on!
Zenth says:
hahaha.
Zenth says:
but really, you're moving into something good.. so don't let something like this hold you back.

Yes, we all know what's the right step for me now, don't we? Can someone please tell my heart that and pray that some sense gets knocked it at the same time.