Wake up early

I'm forcing myself to go sleep early to wake up early later at 7 am. But I'm just too used to my nocturnal lifestyle to be able to fall asleep at such hours. I re-read The Boy's friendster message to me (the one and only from him). Sigh. I only need to think of Went and the defeatist spirit in me starts. I can't fight nor win the ghost of memories or her. It's a losing battle which I might as well just give up. Sleep. Don't think.