can't be perfect

i am suppressing myself from investing any feelings.
it's so tough. people who know me know i am an awfully emotional person, i tend to give a lot of myself to others.
i have to tell myself each day that no way am i going to let her or anyone else know just how close i am to being in **** again.
i think sunshine calls this a sure proof way of getting myself hurt or something to that effect.
don't think about it. don't dare think. don't think.

so the new year resolution shall be to play hard, study hard, and work hard.